My Birthday has never been scarier for me.Come October 13th and I would have graced the world with my precious 25 years..
Never have I been so scared by a number..Not even by the marks I got in exams just by studying cum mugging a night before..not even by CAT percentile when it was/is supposed to be life changing..but now I am officially scared..25 is a SCARY SCARY number!!!PERIOD.
I was cool when I turned 20..from teens to twenties didn't effect me that much..I actually didn't even think about it..It was close to the "legal" age when I was allowed to get drunk sloshed and smashed and get away with it saying 'O I am only 21'.
22 cool..23 cool 24 cool..and then BAM..TWENTY FIVE!!!It's not so cool anymore..
Every day is going to be a countdown now..Each day the thought of doing something great something meaningful will always be on the back or front or all over my mind..so that when I am actually standing on 13th October 2010 and look back I feel not so pathetic..
so much to do so little time..things I haven't done in 25 years I want all of them done in a month!!
Normally everyone is expected to accomplish something in their lives by this time..For god sake its only 5 more years until that big THREE-O!!
It's considered to be an important milestone signifying stability..and well I am no where near that!
Biggest fear???This would be the first birthday when I'll be actually thinking about me getting OLD!!When I wake up that morning I will be on the wrong side of 25..PANIC!!!scary??liberating??terrifying??
Should I feel ridiculous for panicking???I guess not..after all it is meant to be this way..quarter life crisis and all..
Sometimes a wave of anxiety just hits me with a force..
I am going to be 25!!
Holy Hell!!
Analysis of every aspect of life has already begun.Where is it going??Why haven't I traveled around the world yet??questions like that are just popping in mind.
There are so many things wrong that I want to change, hoped to have changed by now!No time now!!Crap.
If someone can grant me just one wish right now???I will turn the calendar a couple of years back!!!!
So unless some miraculous epiphany unfolds in these few days.
I am hoping this anxiety wave lasts about…2 minutes. :)
P.S. There is actually a movie by this name."Quarter Life crisis" :D
P.P.S. a song as well!!!! :D :D
1 comment:
My feelings exactly! Done nothing by this time when people have achieved greatness. :-(
It will be worse after another year. 26 is scarier than 25. Don't know why. But it just is!
Don't talk about three-o so soon. It's still far away. :P And do not worry... whatever we achieve - we'll claim it to be great. :P
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