Quarter life Crisis!!!!

My Birthday has never been scarier for me.
Come October 13th and I would have graced the world with my precious 25 years..
Never have I been so scared by a number..Not even by the marks I got in exams just by studying cum mugging a night before..not even by CAT percentile when it was/is supposed to be life changing..but now I am officially scared..25 is a SCARY SCARY number!!!PERIOD.
I was cool when I turned 20..from teens to twenties didn't effect me that much..I actually didn't even think about it..It was close to the "legal" age when I was allowed to get drunk sloshed and smashed and get away with it saying 'O I am only 21'.
22 cool..23 cool 24 cool..and then BAM..TWENTY FIVE!!!It's not so cool anymore..
Every day is going to be a countdown now..Each day the thought of doing something great something meaningful will always be on the back or front or all over my mind..so that when I am actually standing on 13th October 2010 and look back I feel not so pathetic..
so much to do so little time..things I haven't done in 25 years I want all of them done in a month!!
Normally everyone is expected to accomplish something in their lives by this time..For god sake its only 5 more years until that big THREE-O!!
It's considered to be an important milestone signifying stability..and well I am no where near that!
Biggest fear???This would be the first birthday when I'll be actually thinking about me getting OLD!!When I wake up that morning I will be on the wrong side of 25..PANIC!!!scary??liberating??terrifying??
Should I feel ridiculous for panicking???I guess not..after all it is meant to be this way..quarter life crisis and all..
Sometimes a wave of anxiety just hits me with a force..
I am going to be 25!!
Holy Hell!!
Analysis of every aspect of life has already begun.Where is it going??Why haven't I traveled around the world yet??questions like that are just popping in mind.
There are so many things wrong that I want to change, hoped to have changed by now!No time now!!Crap.
If someone can grant me just one wish right now???I will turn the calendar a couple of years back!!!!
So unless some miraculous epiphany unfolds in these few days.
I am hoping this anxiety wave lasts about…2 minutes. :)

P.S. There is actually a movie by this name."Quarter Life crisis" :D
P.P.S.  a song as well!!!! :D :D

My Random 25..

With my 25th birthday fast approaching and everyone around me celebrating either a 25th anniversary or 25th birthday the number has got stuck in my mind.

So here are some random 25 things about me in no particular order.

1.       I love eating!!!I can eat almost anything in the world that tastes good and doesn’t sound/look yucky and that I don’t have to cook.

2.       I can sleep at any hour..anywhere..Once I slept in a T.V. showroom while my friends were checking out stuff..I have slept in the most uncomfortable back seats in the cars while on road trips..I can even sleep during a meeting with my eyes wide open occasionally nodding and smiling when required(that is a talent!!!)

3.        I can wake up in the middle of the night to have tea (made by someone else) and then go back to sleep again!!!

4.       I watch horror movies with my eyes closed during scenes where I feel something is going to happen..like a ghost popping from somewhere.

5.       While sleeping I listen to music.

6.       I write during the wee hours of morning.

7.       I cry in happiness when I see too much of talent in someone..

8.       I love dogs!!!I want to go to a dog heaven when I die.

9.       I am a Momma’s daughter. can do anything in the world for her

10.   I love dancing..want to pursue it further sometime in future

11.   I want to travel around the world..just backpacking..with not too much money..just living a hippie life meeting all strangers

12.   My favorite show on T.V. is C.I.D!!!I can even watch repeated episodes..

13.   I and my flat mates pretend to be officers of FBI and NYPD!!

14.   As a kid I always had the fantasy of having a Christian wedding.

15.   I hate my nose!!!It’s big and distorted.

16.   I am a dreamer..day dreamer to be specific. If you are having a conversation with me and all I say is hmmm and yes while giving full attention (pretending!!) then I am busy dreaming.

17.   I love reading.

18.   I am always excited about my Birthday!!!Usually start the planning months in advance.

19.   I always lose people I value the most or end up fighting with them.

20.   I got myself a guitar (had a crush on some guy who used to play guitar ) in 2007 and till date all I know is 2 chords!!!

21.   I have yelled at an ant for biting me, at a door or a wall or side of bed for hurting me :)

22.   I am always confused..Have been given names like confused cutlet.

23.   While typing or holding a pen or a cup or anything for that matter I use only 4 fingers.The pinky finger  always revolts and never helps.

24.   I love shoes!!!!

25.   I am the laziest person I have known till date!!!

If I were...

If I were a bird, I would be: a hawk
If I were an animal, I would be: a dog
If I were an emotion, I would be: confused
If I were love I would be: selfless
If I were a day I would be: Sunday
If I were a season, I would be: winter
If I were an enemy , I would be: lethal
If I were a sin, I would be: temptation
If I were a temptation, I would be :chocolate
If I were an element, I would be: water
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: a guitar
If I were a dance, I would be: passionate
If I were a song, I would be: cacophonous!!
If I were a place, I would be: Antarctica
If I were an organ, I would be: the heart
If I were an expression, I would be: :P
If I were a color, I would be: purple
If I were a flavor, I would be:sweet & sour
If I were doing a job,I would be: wandering
If I were a landmass, I would be: an island
If I were a companion, I would be: a 
If I were a drink, I would be: refreshing
If I were a relation, I would be: a friend


If I were a habit, I would be: addiction

When it rains!!!!!

And the monsoons are here!!!!!
Marking the end of the scorching summer heat. The rains are here!!
Though winters are my favorite when it comes to seasons but monsoons hold a second place.
The sheer joy of getting drenched in the rains and gorging on chai and pakodas after that is incomparable to any other in the world.
Nostalgia always sets in when it rains thinking of all the good times which are linked to them.
Back in school rainy days were holidays which were always used to have a boat making and sailing, competition. Raincoats, umbrellas,jumping in the puddles,scolding from mom :)
Bikes rides and singing crazy songs were always fun in college days. Getting soaked with the rain drops falling on the face..dripping from head to toe..having chole kulche at the college gate..sipping on hot coffee afterward..
Tom uncle's Maggie used to taste even better during the rains.
The instant excitement when it rains was always followed by dancing in the rain and the nice cozy sleep after a cup of coffee. Sheer bliss!!!
There is something about this season. Everything is clean and pure. Leaves are washed and green. The fragrance of the earth..if only someone can capture it.
I love to hear the thunder..watch the lightning when it lights up the sky..
It just makes me feel good..I love to feel the rain on my face..to taste the rain on my lips.
Rains put a song in my mind mostly the bollywood ones where the dance sequence running around the trees in the rain always puts a smile on my face every time.

Now that the rains are here..I am gonna enjoy every bit of it..reliving the childhood I am gonna get drenched every possible time!!Bring it on!!

watched d movie n number of times..can't seem to get enough of it..quite fascinating was the fact that people take something like cancer to make them do what they wanted to do for their entire life..not that i blame them..such are the intricacies of life..

so I am not going to wait for an entire lifetime to make my bucket list..
here it goes..

1.to get into IIM A/Ivy league colg..
2.to get a scholarship for studying into Harvard!!!
3.to get a six months long paid break to explore the world(every niche and corner)
4.to match my steps in sync with the best dancing gurus..
5.to learn as many dance forms as possible and be perfect in them
6.to be trained as a pilot (dis one is my child hood dream)
7.to get into perfect shape(have been working on it for like forever!!!)
8.to play guitar and be good at it!!!!
9.to take part in a Karaoke competition and win it!!!(m a hopeless singer)
10.to adopt 2 kids..
11.to rescue all the dogs from stupid organization and build a kennel for them.
12.to go sky diving,river rafting,snorkeling,skiing,all kind of adventure sports..
13.to make the world's best cocktail
14.to work as a bartender in HRC for a day.
15.to watch Pink Floyd,Coldplay,Green Day play live at least once!!!
16.to build a house by the beach..
17.to own McLaren's and spend my evenings there wid my friends ..
18.to kiss Gerald Butler and Hrithik once(though i won't mind infinite times!!!)
19.to go on a bike riding trip in India..
20.to do bungee jumping from the highest altitude possible..
21.to swim along with a dolphin..
22.to give my mom anything that she wants from me.
23.to have an entire closet full of shoes!!!
24.to climb the mount everest(pretty tough one)
25.to go skinny dipping in Antarctica!!

and the list doesn't end here..hope to strike out the ones mentioned here asap..and keep adding new ones..

*new addition:meet edward cullen!!!

Miracle with Paws!!!!

Having spent my entire childhood with them,writing something about them should have been done long long back..
My love affair began with Heera and Moti.they were my first and lasted for 10 yrs..they introduced me to the selfless,compassionate precious world of the canines..
8-2 in school were long waiting hours to get back to them and without fail they were always there on the doorsteps..our playmates..the best companions..who used to protect us at the all the time..used to take care of us just the same way as they guarded their pups..
One of the worst days in my life was when we lost Heera and had to give away Moti..
It took a while to accept a new member in the family..but the moment I saw tiny little Lucy my heart opened up for her..
For the fine German shepherd that she was,she grew up to her full size in less than 2 months..The Brat that she was..used to boss around(the only exception being one cutie lil pup from the neighbor hood)..never even got near to being tamed..

Dogs are the most amazing creation of GOD(as are all
the animals and women of course!!!)rite DOG backward and you get a GOD..
They love and admire the meanest of us..without asking for any anything big in return..You can talk to him when you are lonesome and he understands..He will look at you so attentively and lick your hands so gently..there can be nothing more therapeutic than this..There is no better psychiatrist in the world than a puppy licking your face or a dog trying to cuddle around you..and the biggest reason they can be such a big comfort is that they don't try to find out
the reason.
They let you act yourself..and when you make fool of yourself they won't criticize you..in fact they will make fool out of themselves..the most faithful creatures on the face of planet earth..they will never break your trust..There is no trust that has yet not been broken except that of a dog..
They would never hide their joy when they see you and just the expression of love for you will make you feel good..
whoever said happiness can't be bought..forgot about dogs..

Read theses lines somewhere..

A man may smile and bid you hail
Yet wish you to the devil;
But when a good dog wags his tail,
You know he's on the level.
~Author Unknown

tuk tuk..


Everyday whthr i c mi frndz or nt..whthr i gv mi mum a cal or nt..dese r d guyz i meet regularly..

evry fine morning afta getng ready for work..d moment i step outta mi apartment i want 2 c dese guyz..asap..a bit of delay n mi heart starts sinking..

Guyz n Galz..introducing 2 u an imperative part of mi life(well..afta i shifted 2 hydbd & started working)..ahem..D TUK TUK guyz or in common language..d AUTORICK WALLAS...applause..appaluse..

Cal dem wteva d Phat Phati walla or d auto bhaiya..dey can b seen in al major cities..honking ..bargaining..eating ur head in d process..never ready 2 go by meter newayz..no matter how much u try..u'll gv up until unless u hav gr8 convincing power and loadz of patience of course.

Their fav one liner(thanx 2 mi 7 mnths of experience in dealing wid dem)..

• nai mam..meter nai chalta.kharab hai..
• meter se 10 rs zada..(y d hell do dey hav meter in d 1st place)
• 50 rs de do(for a dist of 2 kmzz!!!)
• wahan se sawari nai milta khali aana padta..etc etc..


Each working day eva though i live at a distance of 10 min frm mi workplace hav 2 start like half an hour early..coz hafta deal wid dese guyz..

And d morning d 1st rick guy agrees 2 go by meter.woohhooo..a surge of happinness gushes inside..sign of a gud day..nice start afta al..:)

hav had mi share of experiences wid dem..an auto guy afta dropping me home suddenly pops dis ques..hav u had ur lunch mam???for a brief moment i did'nt react at al..mixed emotionz..was really hungry dat time n i a sullen mood..so dese words frm sm1 whoz nt even interacted wid me..i felt like cryng..n den dere was dis feeling.. wat d fuck????y is he so bothered???y can't he do his own work???deep inside it felt gud..i dunno..

N few dayz back dere was dis guy..i was waiting for a rick outside mi office wen dis autowalla stopped and asked whr i was headed 2 ...n though he was gng in an opposite direction guided me as in frm whr 2 hire d auto(i was standing on d wrong side) and al dis in superb English!!!I was wondering fr sometime if he was even dis much educated y dis profession..gt no ans coz b4 i cud ask him nethng he was gone.

during mi 1st yr in college came across dis rick guy who dropped me and mi frndz frm a pt whr dere was no chance of getng any auto 2 an autostand in d middle hrs of d nite..n widout even charging nethng!!!!

They have'nt failed to teach me a few thngs here n dere..the skill of bargaining..d art of being adamant..sometimes eva stubborn..being persistent..bt yeah i hav had mi times wen i jes give up on dem..

1 day of auto strike..dunno abt odrz bt mi life wud cum 2 a standstill..dey r d only means of commuting for me till m in hyderabad..so guyz whthr u bargain or do ne kinda kich kich..plz dnt think of gng on strike neday..me and many odr ppl depend on u..
huhh..yet another morning..more classes in bargaining..m ready fr it..hope 2 dayz one of mi lucky dayz...